I promise you I do post Milan stuff and other football things, those public entries are okay with me for the world to know.8
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I love soccer. (football called in Europe) I love ice cream. I love Cold Stone Creamery. (cake batter ice cream with brownie) I love Kaka. I love C.Ronaldo I love Lukas Podolski I love Michael Ballack. I have good friends that never leave me (Sammy, Brittany, Ruth, Fox, the exlorer post).
I love chocolate. I love The Beatles but dislike across the universe.
I love shopping. I love the 1960's, the 50's, 40's also the 80's. I love learning new languages especially, Portuguese and German. My boyfriend Todd is pretty awesome :D
I hate roaches
I hate losing personal things like my creative zen.
I hate the fact that I never see my real friends, but see the fake ones instead.
I hate wearing dark colors or bright colors unless it's 80's fashion.
I hate anime, except for cowboy bebop haha.
More things about me I have no idea what I want to do with a Psychology major. Law enforcement career isn't for me, I do not like guns at all, I do not believe in killing people whatever the reason even if your life is in danger. I have the morals of a hippie(not the dirty ones)
  
  
I'm a hippie, I have 21 pets among them a lovely cockatiel named Princess, including a colt (baby horse) named Miro, he's 10 months old.
As much as I love soccer I don't have much time to watch it. I'm usually always wearing flats. I would like to start running again, but I need a running buddy. I have found a running buddy for Sunday mornings. I am often misunderstood. I say things I don't mean to say because I'm thinking of them. I have ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). I hate being at home, and always dread comming home. I wish my family didn't hate me so much. I wish I got to see my real friends all the time. I have tried to become vegeterian for so long but have always failed at it, cheeseburgers are so yummy. I'm a vegetarian, and my health feels so much better :D Drinking caffeine is bad for me, then I feel like my heart is going to explode because I have high blood pressure. I forgive people easily, but it takes me a while to apologize. Also I do not really hate anyone. I really want to live in Europe one day to be a sports psychologist for a big Football (soccer) team in either Italy of Germany. I'll marry a famous player like Kaka' you'll see. I don't think I will ever finish college because of my car payment, my life is a mess, I am disorganized. Having a job made my grades go down. I don't think I have a religion. My life is pretty lost. It is hard for me to keep friendships. People always distance themselves from me, it's my fault. I space out a lot. I give money and food to the homeless. I hate my job and when I am smiling at work, it's a fake smile. I hate it when people wear peace signs but still do bad things to others. I think it's inhumane to eat animals and wear fur. I need a true friend and someone to listen to me. I usually dream of running away and never coming back.
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Te puedes vender, cualquier oferta es buena si quieres poder. Y que facil es abrir tanto la boca para opinar. Y se te piensas hechar atras tienes muchas huellas que tragar.
Dejame que yo no tengo la culpa de verte caer, entre dos tierras estas y no dejas aire que respirar.
Escuchando el tambor que me invoca hacia al dolor. y no se que estaras haciendo comingo. Vudu... Hay un silencio alrededor, no se cuanto tiempo pasar. Mientras que tu no estas conmigo.
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According to kakafans.net my lovely Kaka will be injured for the next 4-5 months, oh shit Milan needs him for Champions League. More bad new Alexandre Pato is also injured gosh nooooo, what will come of Milan without my boys?
In the Brasil NT, Diego will replace Kaka.......HELL NO, nobody replaces my Kaka. The world is crashing down on me and the Milan world. | |
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Today I got into a really bad car accident, and for those who consider me their friend; I am lucky to be alive.
At 7:45 I was heading out to school, I drove passed Cooper Elementary and a cop pulled me over, gave me a warning for going 30 in a 20. If I didnt mention it before my speedomeder is broken and most of the time it is at 0.
10 minutes later as I was arrivng to school; I was about to make a left hand turn so I drove to the middle lane, looked ahead before making a turn. I thought, "Ok no cars comming", so I was making my turn when out of nowhere a Tahoe came and hit my passengers side, my windows shattered, my rearview mirrow was flew and hit me in the face. When the windows shattered they hit me in the face. No injuries, but my lip was busted and I bled a little and a few scratches on my arms.
When the car was comming my thought was, where did this car come from?
as the car got closer, I thought, I will most likely die from this.
My parents want to kill me dearly, oh yes, more than they would care to see me alive. Stupid freaking car insurance bill is going to go up.
should I be alive? This year has been terrible, I lost someone who was like my best friend, I lost my scholarships and so much more.
Every morning I think to myself, If I die it will be ok, sure enough my family might be sad for a little while. The friends that I've got might feel a little loss. Jerk face is a jerk but I still love him and think of him as a friend.
I hate you 2007. Fuck you 2007. | |
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Comment if you like or are taking. No hot linking, do not claim them as yours. Credit me. oohhh yes, I love Kaka' spam, can someone spam me some kaka'?
 
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i know you're sorry.i just don't know if thats good enough.
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you read ' sorry, try again' off the inside of your bottle cap; story of your life. you never come first,you're never the winner, you're never the best. there's always someone better. ' maybe next time' ' at least you tried' ' you did your best' all these things are supposed to make you feel better, but it just reminds you that no matter how hard you try, how you gave it your all, you always fail.    If my life were to end this moment, I could care less. | |
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I will do this, and it will help me feel better.
Eat that damn chocolate cake, get your hair wet, love someone, dance in those muddy puddles, tell someone off, draw a picture with crayons like you're still 6 years old && then give it to someone whos very important to you, Take a nap, go on vacation, do a cartwheel, make your own recipe, dance like no one sees you, paint each nail a different color, take a bubble bath, laugh at a corny joke, get on that table and dance, pick strawberries, take a jog, plant a garden, make a ugly shirt && wear it all day, learn a new language, write a song, date someone you wouldnt usually go for, make a scrap book, go on a picnic, relax in the sun, make your own home video, kiss the un-kissed, hug the un-hugged, love the unloved && live your life to the fullest. So when you're standing in front of heavens gate that chosen day. You have No Regrets, No sorrows, No disappointments
Strange, huh?
ever look at a picture and see a stranger in the background? it makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you, how many moments of other people's lives we've been in. were we a part of a stranger's life when their dream came true, or were we there when their dreams died? did we keep trying to get in as if we were destined to be there, or did the shot take us by surprise? and not even know it.
ah, yes read the last two entries before this one, now I feel much better :D | |
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yesterday i was at the hospital, i collasped to the floor, i got very dizzy when someone told me not to ever call his number again. I got a seizure, then i passed out, i was at the hospital for 6 hours, with an IV stuck to my arm, i was really dehydrated, they gave me flourine chloride into my blood stream, and an EKG, now i'm stuck to this heart monitor thing for the next 24 hours. my arms are red from the IV's, and they hurt :-(
but I learned a lesson, when i fell asleep there, i can forgive the person who hurted me, its time to let go.
thanks for the support, brittany, sammy and logan. love you guys. | |
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why did you hurt me like this? why did you say that to me?
he was the last thing I wanted to loose, since everyone else turned their back to me. I've no longer have him, we were so perfect for eachother. Why does he have to say he meant it? if in the end he would end this because we went to "far". It was a mistake we made, we weren't ready for it. I want him back, and I will always love him, it doenst matter if he says I will meet other guys. I knew he was the one, why does it have to hurt so bad? why? I love him, I will always love him, no matter what.
even when we were friends I loved him, I love him forever.
Im so sad, I want to die. | |
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