I love AC MILAN

First post in months

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 04:53:39 GMT

I realized home much I missed LJ. It now says, Welcome back Natalie. Well I am going back to school this fall. I love LJ, I don't know what I was thinking all this time. I finally decided what I want to do, my major is now art. I don't know what I will do with an art major, but if I can't make a living from my own art, then I'd like to teach it or have a cupcake shop with other treats. I picture a little bohemian style shop.

And I need to update my user pics because Mr. Kaka no longer plays for Milan, he really broke my heart my doing that. On the bright side my dream of C.Ronaldo and Kaka playing under one team has come true.

What you didn't know

Tue, 13 Jan 2009 08:59:36 GMT

I love soccer. (football called in Europe)
I love ice cream.
I love Cold Stone Creamery. (cake batter ice cream with brownie)
I love Kaka.
I love C.Ronaldo
I love Lukas Podolski
I love Michael Ballack.
~~I have good friends that never leave me (Sammy, Brittany, Ruth, Fox, the exlorer post).~~
I love chocolate.
~~I love The Beatles but dislike across the universe.~~
I love shopping.
I love the 1960's, the 50's, 40's also the 80's.
I love learning new languages especially, Portuguese and German.

My boyfriend Todd is pretty awesome :D

I hate roaches
I hate losing personal things like my creative zen.
I hate the fact that I never see my real friends, but see the fake ones instead.
I hate wearing dark colors or bright colors unless it's 80's fashion.
I hate anime, except for cowboy bebop haha.

More things about me

I have no idea what I want to do with a Psychology major. Law enforcement career isn't for me, I do not like guns at all, I do not believe in killing people whatever the reason even if your life is in danger. I have the morals of a hippie(not the dirty ones)

I'm a hippie, I have 21 pets among them a lovely cockatiel named Princess, including a colt (baby horse) named Miro, he's 10 months old.

As much as I love soccer I don't have much time to watch it. I'm usually always wearing flats. I would like to start running again, but I need a running buddy. ~~I have found a running buddy for Sunday mornings.~~ I am often misunderstood. I say things I don't mean to say because I'm thinking of them. I have ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). I hate being at home, and always dread comming home. I wish my family didn't hate me so much. I wish I got to see my real friends all the time. ~~I have tried to become vegeterian for so long but have always failed at it, cheeseburgers are so yummy.~~ I'm a vegetarian, and my health feels so much better :D Drinking caffeine is bad for me, then I feel like my heart is going to explode because I have high blood pressure. I forgive people easily, but it takes me a while to apologize. Also I do not really hate anyone. ~~I really want to live in Europe one day to be a sports psychologist for a big Football (soccer) team in either Italy of Germany. I'll marry a famous player like Kaka' you'll see.~~ I don't think I will ever finish college because of my car payment, my life is a mess, I am disorganized. Having a job made my grades go down. I don't think I have a religion. My life is pretty lost. It is hard for me to keep friendships. People always distance themselves from me, it's my fault. I space out a lot. I give money and food to the homeless. I hate my job and when I am smiling at work, it's a fake smile. I hate it when people wear peace signs but still do bad things to others. I think it's inhumane to eat animals and wear fur. I need a true friend and someone to listen to me. I usually dream of running away and never coming back.

Dejame

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 05:01:18 GMT

Te puedes vender, cualquier oferta es buena si quieres poder. Y que facil es abrir tanto la boca para opinar. Y se te piensas hechar atras tienes muchas huellas que tragar.
Dejame que yo no tengo la culpa de verte caer, entre dos tierras estas y no dejas aire que respirar.

Escuchando el tambor que me invoca hacia al dolor. y no se que estaras haciendo comingo. Vudu... Hay un silencio alrededor, no se cuanto tiempo pasar. Mientras que tu no estas conmigo.

blah.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Wed, 06 Feb 2008 17:07:38 GMT

According to kakafans.net my lovely Kaka will be injured for the next 4-5 months, oh shit Milan needs him for Champions League. More bad new Alexandre Pato is also injured gosh nooooo, what will come of Milan without my boys?
In the Brasil NT, Diego will replace Kaka.......HELL NO, nobody replaces my Kaka. The world is crashing down on me and the Milan world.

Friends only

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 16:59:09 GMT

I promise you I do post Milan stuff and other football things, those public entries are okay with me for the world to know.8

lucky to be alive?

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 20:51:39 GMT

Today I got into a really bad car accident, and for those who consider me their friend; I am lucky to be alive.

At 7:45 I was heading out to school, I drove passed Cooper Elementary and a cop pulled me over, gave me a warning for going 30 in a 20. If I didnt mention it before my speedomeder is broken and most of the time it is at 0.

10 minutes later as I was arrivng to school; I was about to make a left hand turn so I drove to the middle lane, looked ahead before making a turn. I thought, "Ok no cars comming", so I was making my turn when out of nowhere a Tahoe came and hit my passengers side, my windows shattered, my rearview mirrow was flew and hit me in the face. When the windows shattered they hit me in the face. No injuries, but my lip was busted and I bled a little and a few scratches on my arms.

When the car was comming my thought was, where did this car come from?
as the car got closer, I thought, I will most likely die from this.

My parents want to kill me dearly, oh yes, more than they would care to see me alive. Stupid freaking car insurance bill is going to go up.
should I be alive? This year has been terrible, I lost someone who was like my best friend, I lost my scholarships and so much more.
Every morning I think to myself, If I die it will be ok, sure enough my family might be sad for a little while. The friends that I've got might feel a little loss. Jerk face is a jerk but I still love him and think of him as a friend.
I hate you 2007. ~~Fuck you~~ 2007.

Kaka' Icons!

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 00:43:35 GMT

Comment if you like or are taking. No hot linking, do not claim them as yours. Credit me.

oohhh yes, I love Kaka' spam, can someone spam me some kaka'?

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I am dying.

Mon, 28 May 2007 04:41:48 GMT

stay up until 2 in the morning, the tears are pouring;
i want to make it worth the fight.
what have we been doing for all this time?

I am a complete failure; I shouldn't exisist, I should disappear of the face of the earth. I am harmful to mankind. I am a bad example for my younger sisters.
I am saying this because today, I got my second rejection letter from St. Edwards.

but, I have faith. Two other schools haven't made a decision yet, and I am going to try and apply at least two more schools. I am also going to try and find a back up plan.

I feel like a stupid person, being compared to other people; I am a very low person, a piece of ~~trash~~ to be precise. Compared to the guy I am in love with, I am a low life. I cant believe he says his life is not that great. Other people complain about their lifes.
I am worried, I dont know where I am going to school this fall. At this rate I will never accomplish anything. Ever since I was little I have always wanted to be a U.S Marshal, yeah with no education, I will never even come close to working at a Law Enforcemet Agency; way to go Natalie. you smart one, you have done wonderful in life. blah blah.

I am wondering if I have friends, where is anybody when I need them the most. My brother says to give him a call when I need anything, but I cant get a hold of him.

Not to mention I cry about everyday; I want that boy back. I love him. Yes I love him and lets keep it that way.
blah blah I have heard this before that I 'need to forget him', Okay then, how do you forget someone who was once the only reason you smiled? the person who changed your life. hmm, how?

why do i care anymore?
it never meant a thing.

Fri, 25 May 2007 21:44:45 GMT

i know you're sorry.
i just don't know if thats good enough.

i'd walk through hell in a
gasoline suit just to see you.

no one means as much as you do.
no one ever will.

have you ever been depressed for seriously no reason? you just dont feel up for anything. you dont want to see anyone or do anything. you just want to lie in bed and disappear and you have no reason why.

i remember everything about us.
everytime i try to forget, the feelings
i have for you, they just keep coming back.
i dont want to keep pushing them back anymore.
i dont want to run away from this because
i dont want to completely lose you.
i just want to be with you,
wherever you are.

I'm so alone with no one to talk to...
I am sick of people talking to me when they are bored, people pretending they care. People leaving me when I need them the most. The worst part is I am in love and I know it, I don't want to lose him forever. What I want the most is for us to be back together as a the couple we once were. I wonder if he still loves me back, like he said a couple of times. I want to know if I will ever be back with him, If I will ever get to see his pretty face again.

Find yourself

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 15:45:26 GMT

you read 'sorry, try again' off the inside of your
bottle cap; story of your life. you never come first,
you're never the winner, you're never the best.
there's always someone better.
'maybe next time'
'at least you tried'
'you did your best'
all these things are supposed to make you feel better,
but it just reminds you that no matter how hard you try,
how you gave it your all, you always fail.

If my life were to end this moment, I could care less.

Some people are easy to get over,
they only take a week or two,
but sooner or later, you'll find the one,
who has changed everything about you,
and no matter how hard you try,
you can't find the words to say goodbye.

My life is a mysery, I freaking hate it, the guy I love chooses someone else over me.
I am back to being his loser friend that never gets to have him.

I stopped throwing coins into a fountain a long time ago,
I don't cross my fingers or make a wish when i'm
blowing out my birthday candles. i guess its because
the normal side of me finally realized that no matter
what dumb things i do, the things i wish for
won't happen.

I am sorry for sharing my miserable life with the world.

hmm.

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 22:31:36 GMT

I will do this, and it will help me feel better.

Eat that damn chocolate cake, get your hair wet, love someone, dance in those muddy puddles, tell someone off, draw a picture with crayons like you're still 6 years old && then give it to someone whos very important to you, Take a nap, go on vacation, do a cartwheel, make your own recipe, dance like no one sees you, paint each nail a different color, take a bubble bath, laugh at a corny joke, get on that table and dance, pick strawberries, take a jog, plant a garden, make a ugly shirt && wear it all day, learn a new language, write a song, date someone you wouldnt usually go for, make a scrap book, go on a picnic, relax in the sun, make your own home video, kiss the un-kissed, hug the un-hugged, love the unloved && live your life to the fullest. So when you're standing in front of heavens gate that chosen day. You have No Regrets, No sorrows, No disappointments

Strange, huh?

ever look at a picture and see a stranger in the background? it makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you, how many moments of other people's lives we've been in. were we a part of a stranger's life when their dream came true, or were we there when their dreams died? did we keep trying to get in as if we were destined to be there, or did the shot take us by surprise? and not even know it.

ah, yes read the last two entries before this one, now I feel much better :D

yesterday, the road ahead is a tough one...

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 15:23:35 GMT

yesterday i was at the hospital, i collasped to the floor, i got very dizzy when someone told me not to ever call his number again. I got a seizure, then i passed out, i was at the hospital for 6 hours, with an IV stuck to my arm, i was really dehydrated, they gave me flourine chloride into my blood stream, and an EKG, now i'm stuck to this heart monitor thing for the next 24 hours. my arms are red from the IV's, and they hurt :-(
but I learned a lesson, when i fell asleep there, i can forgive the person who hurted me, its time to let go.

thanks for the support, brittany, sammy and logan. love you guys.

why? i just want to die.

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 22:26:38 GMT

why did you hurt me like this? why did you say that to me?
he was the last thing I wanted to loose, since everyone else turned their back to me. I've no longer have him, we were so perfect for eachother. Why does he have to say he meant it? if in the end he would end this because we went to "far". It was a mistake we made, we weren't ready for it. I want him back, and I will always love him, it doenst matter if he says I will meet other guys. I knew he was the one, why does it have to hurt so bad? why? I love him, I will always love him, no matter what.
even when we were friends I loved him, I love him forever.

Im so sad, I want to die.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Mon, 12 Feb 2007 13:48:45 GMT

I am prohibited of doing so, and I want to so bad. I cannot live without it. I REALLY WANT TO. So FUCK YOU for not letting me so.

wahh.

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 15:36:04 GMT

Antes de tres lunas volveré a por ti
antes que me heches de menos
dejaste riñas muertas
hundidas al pasar
nunca te he esperado tanto

A un minuto de ti
voy detrás de ti
a un minuto de ti
te seguiré

El viento se ha calzado
sus guantes de piel
se entretiene con mi pelo
bebo el agua que viene conmigo estoy
estancado en tu reflejo
solamente de ti
gota a gota
solamente de ti
veneno y sed

Llegaré solo hasta el umbral
na na na, que puedo perder
me atreveré
cuento un paso mas
na na na, no soy como tú

A un minuto de ti
voy detrás de ti
a un minuto de ti
te seguiré

Voy detrás
braceo en espiral
na na na, vue-vuelvo a repetir
saltaré
planeo en derredor
na na na, no soy como tú

Llegaré solo hasta el umbral
na na na, que puedo perder
me atreveré cuento un paso más
na na na, no soy como tú

Who is cr7?

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 17:45:17 GMT

Cristiano Ronaldo

Date of birth: 5 February 1985
Height: 184 cm
Weight: 75 kg
Position: Forward
Current Club: Manchester United (ENG)
Int'l Goals: 12 (as of 8-Jul-2006)
Int'l Caps: 38 (as of 8-Jul-2006)
First Int'l Cap: Portugal v. Kazakhstan (20-Aug-2003)

Cristiano Ronaldo Santos Aveiro is undoubtedly one of the hottest young talents in world football. With his surging runs and dazzling skills performed at blistering pace, comparisons with his Brazilian namesake have been inevitable. This Ronaldo is a star in his own right, however.
Born on the island of Madeira on 5 February 1985, he began his footballing formation with Nacional before a 2002 transfer to Lisbon giants Sporting, at the age of 17. The winger’s rise to stardom since then has been nothing short of meteoric. During his first and only season with the Lions in 2002/03, he played in 25 games and scored three goals.

Arguably the key moment of Cristiano Ronaldo’s career was a pre-season friendly in 2003 between Sporting and Manchester United. Scouts at the English club had been monitoring the young forward’s progress for some time, but it was only after he starred in Sporting’s 3-1 friendly win that United manager Sir Alex Ferguson decided to make his move and sign him.

Ferguson later revealed that in the dressing room after the game his players talked constantly about the young Ronaldo. Even on the plane journey back to Manchester, the United players pleaded with their boss to sign the young star. Other big teams such as Milan and Juventus made enquiries with the Lisbon club over a possible move, but Manchester United were quickest to act, and within a week had officially announced the signing of Portugal’s latest teenage sensation.

Tricks of the trade
Undaunted by his star billing, Ronaldo showed off his full range of trickery on his Manchester United debut against Bolton Wanderers in August 2003, making an immediate impression on the Old Trafford fans. In his first campaign in England, he scored eight goals in 39 games, including the opener in United’s FA Cup final win over Millwall. His string of fine displays culminated in him receiving the club’s player of the year award.

Ronaldo has been equally impressive at international level, and is highly regarded by national team boss Luiz Felipe Scolari. Scolari’s belief in the youngster was rewarded with Ronaldo’s excellent performances in UEFA EURO 2004, despite the team’s eventual defeat in the final against surprise champions Greece. During the tournament, Ronaldo became an established first-team regular as well as the star performer in a team that would go on to qualify for the 2006 FIFA World Cup™ with the minimum amount of fuss.

Portugal’s manager has high hopes for his young charge. “Cristiano has everything needed to be one of the stars of the World Cup," said Scolari. "He’s got so much quality about him, a good turn of pace and a decent shot among other things. If all goes well, he’ll probably be one of the big names of the tournament. I gave him his chance in only our second match of the European Championship and he showed what a decisive player he can be. He’s rewarded my faith in him and has really grown in stature,” the coach said.

The Portuguese wing wizard’s game goes from strength to strength with every passing season as he adapts to the English game and impresses Manchester United and Portugal fans alike. His repertoire of tricks and array of skills continue to leave opposition defenders mesmerised, and could prove to be a key factor in his country’s bid for success in Germany this summer.

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 21:13:27 GMT

Habia un muchacho, se llamaba kaka.

Muhahaha voy a tirar a tu esposa sobre el cristo redentor.

No puedo

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 20:24:06 GMT

pienso que no puedo.
no se.
le voy a dar lastima a alguien.
si.
ya se quien.
tambien es muy divertido.

some stuff.

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 03:45:25 GMT

life sucks at this very moment.
yeah right, its full of exitement, no im kidding.
man that school is full of crap, i cant register for classes.